Steve and I met on match.com on Sept 6th, 2003. Something 'stuck' and we've just been together since (Thank God b/c I could NOT do this life without him!!). We were married Dec 8, 2006. Moved down to GA just a few months after that for Steve's job. And now, 5 1/2 years later, after the 20 hr move, 2 apartments, 2 houses, 3 daycares and countless tantrums, pukes and ouchies, Gavin is 5, Caden 2 1/2 and at this point Owen & Rylan are 6 months old.
We have been blessed with 4 little men. Handsome and healthy little men at that. Yet we don't 'feel' like our family is complete yet. Another spot at the table and another seat in my minivan (yes I drive a minivan and darn proud of it!) is available. I truly believe we've got a daughter out there somewhere! Maybe she's a newborn right now...maybe she hasn't yet been born...but there's a little girl out there that belongs in our family!
Have I always wanted to adopt? I'm not really sure actually. I've always been open to it. I really started thinking about it after the twins were born. A couple of things concerned me. First was what people would think about adoption when I'm able to conceive. So many couples adopting are doing so because they are unable to conceive and I worried that nobody would support us because they figured we already had 4 biological children.
And then you have those people who say:
"You're not done YET?" or "You WANT another?" or "Well geez how many do you want?"
To those people, I'm sorry you feel that way. You are entitled to your opinion as am I. I'm not doing this blog or this adoption for you. I believe this is something God wants for our family. It's not going to be easy (or cheap!) but if this is indeed the way God wants us to go, there WILL be a way! After all is said and done, we've prayed about it and still feel it's right.
And anyone who welcomes a little child like this on my behalf is welcoming me.
Matthew 18:5
When I started looking into adoption we weren't sure domestic vs international. Prayed about it...and then I came across one website that I just kept going back to and I wasn't sure why. It's an agency in Louisiana(will post the name later upon owner's approval). It might sound cheesy to some but I think it was God's way of showing me which way to go and quite possibly which agency. There is nothing flashy on this site. Nothing promising anything super quick super cheap super great...it's a nice website, don't get me wrong...but there's nothing super flashy about it...anyhow I kept going back to it...everyone says God puts people in our lives at the right times etc...I think he very possibly put Terri in ours to help us through this. She's a Great lady who was super helpful and who I'm just very much looking forward to working with.
There are a couple reasons I wanted to attempt to blog about our adoption. I want to share this journey with whomever wants to follow it. I want those that want to support us to be able to do so. Whoever wants to help bring her into our lives to be able to. Most of all after this is over, I want our daughter to be able to look back at this blog and see the love, determination and support...everything that went into bringing her into our family!!
Father to the fatherless, defender of widows — this is God, whose dwelling is holy. God places the lonely in families.
Psalms 68:5-6
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